Last year in October I traveled to Java, an Island in Indonesia. I traveled from the Jakarta airport to a city called Bandung. I stayed there for 10 days. I was confronted, to say the least. Bandung was a place not really that far from my home but couldn’t be more different. It is full of poverty but Australia is full of wealth.
This is going to be a series called “Take to Heart”. I am going to write about my experience in Indonesia and how God changed my perspective of life. This post will be about human nature, our heart, and mind.
I went to Bandung and I was confronted. I had a good time overseas but I was also horrified by my experience. I was so confused, why did I go there? I’m pretty sure it is not in the top ten places to visit around the world. That mission trip was so confronting that I didn’t even properly explain to my parents and family what happened on the trip until a couple months later.
I was sad then confused then disgusted and the whole time I wondered; how could God let people live like that? Why did he let me see that? I was an emotional wreck to the point where I did not want to go back there ever. but that was my head. Since I arrived back in Australia I have had this tug, like part of me is still in Bandung. I feel that I need to go back, and if I don’t want to go back but I need to, obviously God has been working in my heart.
A great quote from one of my favorite books says “Sometimes the heart tells us to venture, where the mind fears to tread.” This is a great explanation of what is going on in my head and heart. My heart is telling me to return when my mind is telling me no! don’t do it, you will regret it, it’s scary out there! No matter what my mind tells me I am going to trust in God’s plan for me.
I trust my heart, for I know the holy spirit lives in me. Psalm 37:4 says “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” This to me means because the holy spirit is living in me my desires should be aligned with God’s. So my heart is telling me to go back and love the people of Indonesia, and that is what I plan to do.
Minds lead by godly hearts are good. Our mind tells us to be careful, to feel fear to protect us, it’s our human instinct. If we are to be lead by just our heart we are foolish, like if we are just lead by our head. When our holy spirit filled hearts lead our earthly minds we are wise. We will never know for certain what God’s plan for us is, we just need to believe and trust in the plan God has for us.
I hope you found this blog post encouraging and helpful, there will be more in the series to come.